your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother angel

Taking Back Sunday-Cute Without The 'E' 'nin Punk Goes Acoustic versiyonunu ne kadar sevdiğimi hatırladım birden. O şarkıyı ne çok dinlemiştim yıllar önce.

And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head?

Geçen gün telefonumdaki mesajlara bakıyordum, kilitlediğim mesajlara denk geldim. Onları pek okumam genelde, 3 yıl önce gelenleri bile saklıyorum aslında, acı verir diye okumuyordum. Baktım okudum hepsini, İlke ve Yasemin dışında tek bir tanesi bile artık hayatımda olmayan insanlardan gelmiş "Seni seviyorum, hep yanındayım, hiç bırakma beni, sana aşığım" etc. mesajları. Komik geldi birden, o yalanların hepsi. "Ben seni hep seveceğim sen beni terk edip gitsen bile"ler falan.. Ne kadar da yalan. İronik olan ise o mesajı atan çoktan gitmiş, ben kalmışım, ben onu o kadar unutmamışım ki hala gözlerim doluyor hatırladığımda, o beni çoktan unutmuş.

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don’t ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me

Why can’t I feel anything
From anyone other than you?

And all of this was all your fault

(I stay jealous)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
As something larger than life
(she’ll destroy us all before she’s through
And find a way to blame somebody else)

LiLo and SamRo are the cutest couple ever!!

Sam sarışınken Linds daha iyisini bulabilirdi diye düşünüyordum ama kahverengi saçlı hali *taş* olmuş. H-O-T-T!! Çok süperler, tapıyorum onlara!!

i haven't got a clue if you're the one, but i like you

it might not be the right time
i might not be the right one
but there's something about us i want to say
cause there's something between us anyway

i might not be the right one
it might not be the right time
but there's something about us i've got to do
some kind of secret i will share with you

i need you more than anything in my life
i want you more than anything in my life
i'll miss you more than anyone in my life
i love you more than anyone in my life

<3

there are times when i will need you, there are times when you're not around

Returned home tonight feeling all emotional and everything. I waited, I told myself not to blog about you. Yet again, for the 204820586th time since you've been gone, I'm writing about you. I had many things to tell you but when I think about it the words just leave me. I don't know why this happened, I don't know why you did such a thing to me, but I do know that I did nothing to deserve it. I know for sure that even if I thought about it for the next thousand years, I wouldn't be able to come up with any reason to explain to myself why you left. I don't know why you left and I wish, with all of my heart and soul, you pay for what you did and never find happiness ever again. What sucks the most is that I know you're not a bad person and I can see you're not like the others, but trust me, they will take you down. The smile on my face as I see you breaking down will be worth all this drama.