Wednesday, 2 April 2008

these flowers will always die

"this dream never ends" you said
"this feeling never goes, the time will never come to slip away"
"this wave never breaks" you said
"this sun never sets again, these flowers will never fade"
"this world never stops" you said
"this wonder never leaves, the time will never come to say goodbye"
"this tide never turns" you said
"this night never falls again, these flowers will never die"

never die
never die
these flowers will never die

"this dream always ends" i said
"this feeling always goes, the time always comes to slip away"
"this wave always breaks" i said
"this sun always sets again, and these flowers will always fade"
"this world always stops" i said
"this wonder always leaves, the time always comes to say goodbye"
"this tide always turns" i said
"this night always falls again, and these flowers will always die"

always die
always die
these flowers will always die

between you and me
it's hard to ever really know
who to trust
how to think
what to believe
between me and you
it's hard to ever really know
who to choose
how to feel
what to do

never fade
never die
you give me flowers of love

always fade
always die
i let fall flowers of blood



Sean Bateman: Lauren I want to know you.

Lauren: What does that mean know me, know me, nobody ever knows anybody else, ever! You will never know me.

Tuesday, 1 April 2008

do that pussy right

Pussy eating 101: The lyrics pretty much speak for themselves..

Good Evening, Class
I would like to welcome you
To Pussy Eating 101
Pay close attention now

There's rules and regulations to pleasin' a girl
Goin' downtown could really rock her world
But you gotta make sure that you know what you're doin'
There's a map down there that you gotta start learnin'

First, you gotta make sure you rehearse
Move 'round your tongue like your tryin' to curse
'Cause there's nothin' worse than a tongue that doesn't work
Then your girl will be mad and you'll feel like a jerk

Spread out her lips before you kiss
You wanna make sure that you find the clit
Lick a little bit then move it all around
Lick it all over 'til you hear her make a sound

Then you know that you found a good spot
Tease it and touch it, but not a lot
Put your mouth on top, you're in control
You can make it happen - fast or slow

Lick it, better lick it right
Touch it, better touch it right
Kiss it, better kiss it right
Do that pussy right

Lick it, better lick it right
Touch it, better touch it right
Kiss it, better kiss it right
Do that pussy right

Don't be bland - better act creative
Be on top of your game and be innovative
Experiment a bit and change it up
Lick a little lower then put it in her butt

Then you can place a finger inside
Make sure that it's wet and easy to glide
If she's really wet, and your finger slides,
Try to put another one inside

But you better still have your mouth on the clit
You know you're doin' good if her legs twitch
Then pick her up and set her on your face
Pick a large area to give her some space

She needs some room to place your mouth where she want it
And let her ride your face like she's 'bout to cum on it

The key to a girl's heart is goin' down south
So come on everybody let her put it in your mouth!

Let your mouth do the talkin' and your tongue do the walkin'
Work on your cardio, there is no stoppin'
Get through the pain if your jaw locks
You gotta be a soldier and don't stop

Lick her and finger her at the same time
Feel around the G-spot seek and you shall find
Rup on that spot, lick on top
You got to be coordinated, show her what you got

Once you got that down, put your other hand around
I have to be blunt and not profound
Put your wet pinky finger in her asshole
You're in three different places - it's time to go

Your pinky in her ass and your other in her hole
Your tongue move fast like a drum roll...
If your girl can't come this way,
I guess she's not ready, come back another day

Thursday, 27 March 2008

do it again? i know we should !!

The sun is up
I'm so happy I could scream!
And there's nowhere else in the world I'd rather be
Than here with you
It's perfect
It's all I ever wanted
I almost can't believe that it's for real

I really don't think it gets any better than this
Vanilla smile
And a gorgeous strawberry kiss!
Birds sing we swing
Clouds drift by and everything is like a dream
It's everything I wished

Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn't think it could
Do it again?
I know we should!!!


Say it will always be like this
The two of us together
It will always be like this
Forever and ever and ever...


The Cure-Mint Car. Liseye başlamamdan önceki yaz boyunca sürekli dinlediğim, güneşli bir günde bavullarınızı toplamış tatile giderken arabanızda son sesle bağırarak eşlik ederken dinlenmesi gereken bir şarkı bu. Dünyanın en mutlu anılarının adı üstünde birer "anı" haline gelmiş, yani geçip gitmiş olmalarının bile insanı üzemediği yerlerin, umutsuzca ve herşeye rağmen romantik olanların, iyimser aşıkların, günbatımlarının insanları hüzünlendirmekten çok huzur verdiği zamanların şarkısı. Dünyadaki en mutlu şarkı.

Say it will always be like this, the two of us together..

Wednesday, 26 March 2008

enjoy it while you can before things change

Everything used to be so simple yesterday. Well, now they're not. I was so sure of how I felt, and I thought my feelings were in control. Right now I feel as if I'm standing on the edge, I could either go back or I could jump. I have got to take cover, brother, what have we done? This could go seriously wrong, and I mean it, things could get really ugly. Just tell me you'll be waiting down there, and I'll happily jump off the edge.

come on
let’s go
i said i'm driving and i'm driving
it's true, i’ve got something for you..

Wednesday, 19 March 2008

elise, believe i never wanted this

The Cure-A Letter to Elise dinliyorum. Sözlükte bu şarkı için yapılan bir yorum var, kesinlikle katıldığım. "Acıtır, her daim acıtır..". 2005 Rock'n Coke'ta The Cure sahnedeyken, ve bu şarkı çalarken, yağmurun yağdığını, bana hep bu şarkıyı hatırlatan insanı, o görmesin diye arkamı dönerek ağladığımı, gözümün önünde olup artık hayatımda olmayışına dayanamayarak The Cure bitmeden çadıra koştuğumu hatırlıyorum.

oh elise it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out
every way to smile
forget
and make-believe we never needed
any more than this
any more than this

oh elise it doesn't matter what you do
i know i'll never really get inside of you
to make your eyes catch fire
the way they should
the way the blue could pull me in
if they only would
if they only would
at least i'd lose this sense of sensing something else
that hides away
from me and you
they're worlds to part
with aching looks and breaking hearts
and all the prayers your hands can make
oh i just take as much as you can throw
and then throw it all away
oh i throw it all away
like throwing faces at the sky
like throwing arms round
yesterday
i stood and stared
wide-eyed in front of you
and the face i saw looked back
the way i wanted to
but i just can't hold my tears away
the way you do

elise, believe i never wanted this
i thought this time i'd keep all of my promises
i thought you were the girl i always dreamed about
but i let the dream go
and the promises broke
and the make-believe ran out...

Seni çok özlüyorum, Elise.
Ve çocukluğumuzu.

Tuesday, 18 March 2008

this heart is yours, let it bleed

3 yıl öncesinin playlistlerini dinlerken Further Seems Forever-Bleed çalmaya başladı birden. Sözlerini dinledim, düşündüm. Son zamanlarda fazlasıyla Shanevari hallere düşen aşk -daha doğrusu olmayan aşk- hayatım, benim olduğu gibi pek çok insanın da ilgi alanları içindeymiş meğer. Gayet alakasız insanlardan kulağıma gelip duran dedikoduların en ilginci ise şu anda son derece ayrılmış olduğum eski sevgilime "Tekrar çık benimle nolurrr" şeklinde yalvarmalarım sonucu tekrar çıkmaya başlamış olduğumuz şeklindeydi. Bunu eski sevgilinin psikolojik durumuna verip "Hadi neyse" diyorum ama, kulağıma hiç gelmeyen bunun benzeri daha pek çok şey olduğunun da farkındayım. İnsanların seçimlerimi fazla özgürce bulmaları, ya da sürekli farklı insanlarla görülmemin bazılarının ahlak anlayışlarına ters gelmesi beni rahatsız etmiyor. Bu bahsettiğim nedenlerden dolayı arkamdan konuşmaları bir zamanlar rahatsız ediyordu. Artık o da etmiyor. İlk olarak, ben değer yargılarını kendime tamamen ters bulduğum bu toplumun ahlaki sınırlarını benimsemiyorum; dolayısıyla bu sınırların içine hapsolmuş kişilerin ağzından çıkan laflar üzerimde amaçladıkları o kırıcı etkiyi yaratamıyor. İkinci olarak ise, ya çok az tanıdığı ya da hiç tanımadığı insanların hakkında konuşma gereği duyanları gerçekten çok zavallı buluyorum. Özgüveni tam, kişilik gelişimini tamamlamış, komplekssiz ve yapacak işi gücü olan insanların uğraşacağı şeyler değil bunlar. Bana harcayacağınız dakikalarınızı kendinize ait bir hayat sahibi olmaya harcayın.

Evet, konu çok dağıldı. Bleed dinliyorum demiştim. Varmak istediğim nokta ise, artık ciddi birşeylere hazır oluşumdu.

to every heart that's growing darker
colder and colder
the heart on the sleeve is getting older and older
just cut it open and bleed

it wont be long now
and in time you'll find out
this heart is yours
let it bleed

Monday, 17 March 2008

it's you i take, cause you're the truth, not i

I'm getting sentimental again. There's this moment that I recall when I think about being peaceful. I'm laying down on my bed, and watching the crimson shadows dance on the walls in the dimly lit room. I used to love that red bedside lamp. I was 13, and that exact moment, was my most peaceful one. It was February 21th, 2002. I never felt so safe again.

that's the end and that's the start of it
that's the whole and that's the part of it
that's the high and that's the heart of it
that's the long and that's the short of it
that's the best and that's the test in it
that's the doubt the doubt, the trust in it
that's the sight and that's the sound of it
that's the gift and that's the trick in it

you're the truth, not i...

Sunday, 16 March 2008

hold me close

and I'm walking down my own street
the leaves are falling high, high on my feet
I wish I wasn't cold, I wish I wanted the same things

and I keep speaking words and words of thunder
hoping to shake something and feel alive
like a train wreck I'm falling under
but my speech is numb
and I can't help but keep hurting

and I wish that I was younger
and I wish that I was young enough to know better
and I wanted you to hold me close
hold me close.

Uzun zamandır böyle hissetmemiştim. 6 aydır sanırım. Zsa zsa zsu =) Umarım sen o'sundur.

Friday, 7 March 2008

the L word

Girls in tight dresses who drag with mustaches
Chicks drivin' fast , ingenues with long lashes
Women who long, love, lust, women who give
This is the way, it's the way that we live.

Talking, laughing, loving, breathing,
fighting, fucking, crying, drinking,
riding, winning, losing, cheating,
kissing, thinking, dreaming.

This is the way that we live, and love.

Monday, 3 March 2008

just like heaven

"Show me how you do that trick the one that makes me scream," she said, "the one that makes me laugh," she said and threw her arms around my neck. "Show me how you do it and I promise you, I promise that I'll run away with you. I'll run away with you." Spinning on that dizzy edge, I kissed her face and kissed her head, and dreamed of all the different ways I had to make her glow. "Why are you so far away?" she said, "Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you, that I'm in love with you?"

You. Soft and only you. Lost and lonely, you. Strange as angels, dancing in the deepest oceans, sitting in the water, you're just like a dream. You're just like a dream.

Daylight licked me into shape. I must have been asleep for days, and moving lips to breathe her name, I opened up my eyes and found myself alone. Alone. Alone above a raging sea that stole the only girl I loved, and drowned her deep inside of me. You.