zerofeelings goes blogger-crazy

İngilizcemi geliştiriyorum pt.2

I've totally gone blogger-crazy lately. It's like the word-vomits in Mean Girls, only it's more like a post-vomit. I got a Facebook account, it's so much fun, complicated though. I guess it's gonna take me a while to figure it out. Dyed my hair dark blonde today, it looks nice. I was planning on going out today, but I really wasn't in the mood both physically and emotionally. Yesterday's events really wore me out. I don't think I'll ever go to the Pub again. Note to self: Never get friendly with people who work at the bars that you go to a lot. It always causes trouble, sooner or later. Anyways, I'm really beginning to feel like alcohol is becoming a problem for me. When I drink too much, I talk too much, I can't control my temper and get into fights with people. I totally lose control over my words. And also I become this full-of-love-and-ready-to-hug kind of person. Suddenly it's like "Hey, it's not me, it's the vodka talking". I hate that and I hate doing things that I'll regret next morning.
Also after last night, I realized that I'm done with people who don't appreciate me or love me. I'm SO done. I won't let them stay in my life unless they respect me and want to be part of my life. I really don't need any extra luggage and I will no longer tolerate any asshole-ness from now on. I will not tolerate people who don't pay me attention, people who don't love me as I love them, people who talk behind my back while they're being hypocrites, disrespect, arrogance, lies, people who don't care whether they'll be part of my life or not, people who take me for granted, people who think I'm a spoilt little slut, people who are so pathetic that they have to make fun of me/my friends/my blogs to be able to stand the boredom of their sorry little lives and people who don't reply the messages that i send them on msn. If you think you qualify as one of the above, you're not welcome(you should really go and talk some more behind my back about... I don't know, that I'm writing in English maybe?). If not, I truly thank you for reading all this crap but I really had to get it all out :)